So obviously I haven't been updating lately... I feel kind of bad because now i'm not going to remember anything later on. TK's been putting weekly updates in hers.

So what's been happening? Um... I've gotten back into writing and fanfiction. I'm currently writing like three different stories, some a little more important than others. I'm glad that people actually like them and review them. That makes me happy... ehh... the semester is almost over but im a little worried about grades... i hope they dont suspend me because i FINALLY get to take a Japanese class after YEARS of waiting... etc.

Uhhh, I have to say this past week and a half was very hectic to say the least; Lets see.. Jeff apologized again for being an asshole back when i was like 15 (2004/2005). I think this time he means it because when i saw him he definitely was different from how he used to be (minus the smoking part, still dont like that) but he's pretty cool to hang out with. Jacob doesn't really like him because of what he did to me back then but its like... too long ago for me to dwell over. Jacob said he actually wanted to talk to him yesterday and tell him why he didn't like him... kinda like a calm little talk or w/e. However, i ended up deleting Jeff's number and telling him about it... he was mad... i hated it, but... x_x i didnt know what else to do. I would've liked to be friends; he knows that i dont want to be with him and he doesnt want to be with me either; he just wanted to redeem himself i guess... i forgive him, i really do. And if he's lying about anything.... then thats his own problem i guess (even though i dont see it) because I really think he's trying. It'd be a shame.

Also, there was a group project that we've had all semester so my group was meeting up every other day to get it done last minute. That was heck. With work, i've really been feeling the pressure. They know i'm sick of working in the back (kennelling, etc) and it shows. There's a new girl (actually about three new girls) that came in and did a superb job making the place spotless or w/e... and all of a sudden im just pushed aside. they gave me random vacations, which in a way was good, hired like three new people... which only made me worried because then it'd be easier to let me go. Instead, Julia asked if I wanted to do Bathing instead and get 'proper training' in that. (I was so pissed when the new girl had to 're-train' me with kenneling... omg after two years of working there its like... grrr, not her fault, but still) I knew how to bathe, they just wanted me to do as well as Jennifer did. I guess they don't think I can do anything anymore. Any other place would've just fired me... so i guess this is just a chance to show them i can still work... or something...

In other news... TK's with Neal (aka god xDD). It's really cute!! ^-^

I've also realized that I subconsciously write stories closer to me than I think. I say its not based off my life, which its not, but then things that I wrote in the story tend to happen to me. (-points to Spotlight-) umm... yeah. weird.

...Um... basically... I love Jacob and I do want to make him happy somehow... but i just dont know what to do...

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MTAC 2009: epicness..?

For MTAC I dressed as Xion from KH 358/2 days and Namine. A few people recognized me (she's kind of new). I hung around the KH fans (of course xD) and took tons of pictures. Lea and Leanne actually came up from Florida (AWESOME!) which made me so happy. I think they're coming back in a few weeks.. not sure... i'll probably be on my vacation.

At the rave, I couldnt take the mustiness.... so i think i was only there for an hour and a half in all. I was jammin... i have to admit it wasn't as fun as last year when we had everybody all in the same area (friends), but it was still cool.

Random hugs are nice.